Two Month Count Down...

Two months from today I will be saying vows to my future hubby to be.  I can't believe time has gone so fast!  As my Cousin Mike told me this morning, I need to stop worrying about all the little stuff I can't control.  The bugs, weather, if my Uncle is going to move his cows from the front pasture to an out pasture?  hehehe.  Ok, I can probably beg on the cow thing, but as long as they don't start answering for me on the vows I'm good to go.  Did I also mention that a train runs behind my Aunt and Uncles?  Too much to call and ask that they find another route for the 30th?  I'm kidding...kind of!

From today on my focus is solely on the happy day ahead and I know everything else will work out.  There will be crazy moments...it is my wedding after all...but I also know those moments will add to the memories of the day. 

I don't think it's too much to ask we all pray for NO rain, low temps, I don't fall/trip/pass out, and the bugs find another place to be for the day.  Hey, God performs miracles! 

It Was More Than Just Fishing

Robert, Delany and I went to Lake Afton last Sunday.  It was our first time, as a couple/family, that we were at the lake together.  I can say that there will be many more trips...with higher SPF sunscreen for some of us...I won't name names! 
This day will hold a very special place in my heart for all time for many reasons:

1. Delaney drove us there and drove me to the bathroom, without complaint, the umpteenth time I had to go.
2. Robert loves the lake as much as I do and we share many of the same memories growing up.
3. We cooked hot dogs on the grill and Robert burnt mine just the way I like them.
4. I had smore's.
5. Robert helped his daughter fish and it was more than just fishing.
6. Robert started a fire to light the grill with the cigarette lighter of his truck because I forgot to pack a lighter.  I now call him Robmacgyver.
7. Robert caught a fish and let me take credit for it to take a pic and send to my sister to prove that I can hold a fishing pole AND knew which end was up!
8. I laid in my lawn chair and sunbathed and read a book and Robert never asked me to lift a finger.
9.  He understands that Princess's don't do slimy.
10.  Delaney put some type of creepy fish thing on my chair when I had gotten up.  I tried not to squeal like a girl.
11.  I didn't puke when Robert was putting liver and worms on their fishing hooks.
12.  Robert and I realized we both love strawberry Twizzlers. 
13.  Robert tans and I burn.
14.  I miss my Grandma Alta and it was hard for me not to cry.  Although she would be extremely disappointed that I turned into a girly girl...but I can still do minnows!
15. Robert and I were able to relax and remember exactly why we fell in love.
16.  Delaney had a good time and wants to go back often.
17.  Robert was sexy casting and reeling his fishing pole.
18.  Robert made me laugh so hard when every time he would sit down he would have to jump back up again to grab his pole.  Then as soon as he would get up the fish would leave the pole alone.  This went on the four plus hours we were there.
19. Said fish that was messing with Robert was finally caught.  The fish was missing an eyeball when we finally got done with the photo shoot.
20. Did I mention I had smore's?

What Doesn't Kill You...

Robert and I seem to have gone through a lot in the short six months we have been together.  I had the normal flu, bronchitis, pneumonia and then H1N1 all in a three month period (basically the first three months of our relationship) and Robert has had hernia surgery.

Saturday, April 14th was a testament to our strong relationship.  We survived our first tornado together.  I don't mean just a tornado watch and we were glued to the TV.  I mean tornado, heading straight for our house, in our shelters praying tornado.

Highlights:
Robert knows that 12hrs of tornado coverage isn't enough.
Robert knows he's not suppose to turn the channel while there are tornado warnings for any part of Kansas.
Robert knows that I will yell at him if he opens the door when the sirens are going off to see if he can actually see the tornado that is baring down on us and might kill us. 
I will not spend another tornado in a closet without him beside me. 
We know that Monkey has breathe bad enough to knock a grown man unconscious.
 Monkey will need his own closet next round of storms. 
I made sure I had a bra on.
I had the pleasure of praying with my Mom.
Baby Sixx licked my Mom's tears and laid on her to bring her comfort.
Baby Sixx had no idea she was in a 1x1 closet and why we were so upset.
Monkey wouldn't get in the closet with Robert and pulled his stitches and I left Robert in the hallway on the floor and returned to my closet...yes, I'm still making up for this and all I can say is I was mad he wasn't already in his closet and waited until the very last minute!
Willow was sacrificed and had to go to the garage in her carrier because there wasn't room in either closet.
Mom will not spend another storm in a closet at our home.
After the storm lifted and we were clear, Robert held me for 2hrs straight and wouldn't leave my side.
I was thankful that my dress was still at the bridal store and wasn't with me.
You can quote all the weather mumble jumble you want, but that tornado turned because prayers work!

Wedding Plans

I was lucky enough (and just naive enough) that my Mom and my Sister planned most of my first wedding.  I picked out the material for the bridesmaid dresses and I picked out my dress, and had some say in the cake.  Oh, and I also picked out the theme of the wedding.  I THINK I picked out the invitations, too?

I don't remember the first time being stressful, although there was a problem with a fight that happen weeks before my wedding and my childhood best friend was not in my wedding (we've made up and all is good in the world!), but other than that it was all good!  I remember going into the bathroom right before I walked down the isle and vomiting...but that is SO normal for me so I don't even consider that an issue. 

This time is stressful.  My Sister is helping me plan, which I'm so thankful for, but she's in Texas and I'm here and I have to visual everything! Also, as some of you know, my Sister has control issues. Then, I have the whole divorce parents thing, throwing Roberts Mom, friends and family into the mix and praying to the good Lord above that my Cousin Mike is only kidding about picking up road kill to BBQ and feed everyone! 

Robert and me can't remember why we talked ourselves out of eloping.  I'm blaming my niece Kelcy because I distinctly remember asking her if she would be mad if she wasn't  there and she said, "I will never forgive you, Aunt Jonya".  There it is!

Balance

My social calendar is pretty much non existent at this point in my life. I totally get why girls with families become giddy when they get to go out, even for something as small as coffee (or a Pepsi), with a friend!  I wouldn't change having Robert and Delaney in my life for the world, but I do miss certain things.

I miss: sleeping until 3:00 in the afternoon and only getting up when Monkey needs to pee, staying in my PJ's all day long and doing NOTHING, reading an entire book in a weekend (sometimes starting another one Sunday night), planning last min dinners with friends after an extremely horrendous day at work (Ok, yes, it's really about the booze we consumed while chatting!), my apartment being a wreck and only keeping one room cleaned in case of expected guests, eating cereal for dinner and not feeling one bit guilty...three days out of the week, going to bed at 7:00 p.m. and no one knowing, watching my DVR shows the same night just delayed, my hr long phone calls with my BFF, my soul mate Kim-Kim and my Mom...all in the same night, texting five different people, watching TV, playing on my computer all while eating something naughty, AND don't even mention how long it's been since I've been on Pinterest! 

I know I will find the balance in life.  Until then? I'm hiring an assistant!

 

Dreams

Yes, I have super real dreams when I sleep (that is for an entirely different post!), but I'm talking about the dreams that we dream while we're awake.  The ones that we carry with us when we get older and we measure everything too.  The ones that we have trouble letting go of when we realize that a different path has been set before us. 

I've truly given up trying to figure out why things happen the way they do.  I don't have the answers.  I just know that God is working in my life and I have to have faith and trust that I'm being given another chance.  It's not traditional and not the way I had dreamed it would be, but it's the bottom line that counts.

I have found my prince charming and I get to be a step mom. 

Life is stressful, I sometimes do miss my old life, but at the end of the day my heart is filled with love and happiness.  That dream has become a reality!

Starting Over

I really don't drive a mini van.  I will never drive a mini van.  But a mini van to me represents my life right now. 

I'm going to be a step mom, to a daughter who plays soccer, who doesn't like pink and is not into bling bling and all things that glitter, she doesn't like to wear dresses, or dangling earrings, she's shy and quiet, she got me a cat for Christmas, she has hello kitty, big time rush and lil wayne posters on her wall, she's very complex and teaches me a lot about myself.  I LOVE THIS GIRL!

I'm going to be a wife, to a man who is traditional, who is modest and shy and talks very little, who loves to cook and will clean and do laundry, he laughs at me when I get mad, and is still shocked when I cuss, he can't tell a joke and very seldom gets mine, he loves chocolate and writes love notes for me to find, he spends more time picking out his clothes than I do and will not wear sweats out of the house, he's a neat freak and can live without watching sports every minute of every day, he likes to snuggle and loves my dogs and he calls me baby and has no problem marrying a princess.  I LOVE THIS MAN!

Welcome to my new world!