Stir Crazy!

There is a big difference between staying home because you want too and staying home because you HAVE too.  When I was sick, my doctor basically told me I had to rest and stay away from places where there were a lot of people; grocery stores, Wal-Mart, Target, etc.  I got it.  I was obsessive about washing my hands even here at home.  Germs were my enemy.  I started counting the days that I had been cooped up in the house.  The days led to weeks.  FOUR weeks to be exact! After that, I did leave the house for a few very short trips, but even then I went back into seclusion and added a few more weeks on.  Then, with the snow, I added on another week!  My little car has been buried under a snow drift and we don't have a shovel.  And, to be honest, I wasn't too keen on being outside in the cold with that air hitting my lungs and making me cough worse than I already do.

So, tomorrow, I have a very early doctor's appointment and a lunch date/meeting.  And my sister might stop by on her way home to my Mom's.  All of this to say that I'm actually looking forward to being out in public again, even if it means I have to put on a bra and underwear!  Heck, at this rate, I might shave my legs and put on some makeup!

Losing GaGa

                                                  

Delaney lost her GaGa today.  Those words alone being me to tears.  I can't believe she is gone! She was the glue for her family.  I have known Lou for over 15 years.  In those years I spent as many with her and her family as I did my own! I have gone through many, many deaths in my life, although I have never dealt with someone here one minute and gone the next.  It has always been a long illness or an accident/injury and you have time to say your goodbye's.

Robert had just picked up Delaney (Delaney and her Mom (Shelli) live with GaGa) and as Delaney was getting her things ready Robert and Lou talked about the roads. Robert told Lou to be careful on her way to work.  An hour later she was gone.  I have came to the understanding we may never know the "why" of anything that happens here on Earth.  It doesn't make the loss or circumstances any easier, but my faith is the only thing I can rely on to get me through these moments. I have to believe God has a plan.  A plan that is better and bigger than any one of us can comprehend.  

Robert is struggling.  He was married to Shelli for over 22+ years and Lou was his Mom as much as his own. He also had to watch his daughter cry her heart out today, and most likely many more days to come.  I am blessed that Robert and me were allowed to mourn with the family at the hospital and to be apart of those unbelievable moments when all you can do is love on one another. 

These are the things I will miss most about Lou (no particular order):

1. She always had her hair dyed a crazy color.  Dark black, red and most recently purple.

2. Depending on the holiday, she would wear bunny ears in her hair, Valentine's Day hearts, reindeer antlers, etc

3. On many holidays, there was not an inch of her yard not covered with blow ups, and other decorations to mark the special occasion.

4. She was always on hand for her grand-kids activities and was the loudest voice in the stands or on the sideline.

5. She had the BEST laugh!

6. She cussed and said words that made even me blush!  I have to say that I have added a few of her favorites to my vocabulary over the years.

7. She will miss the birth of her second great grandchild.  

8. When she hugged you there was a chance of some broken ribs.

9. She welcomed people into her home and family without a second thought.

10. She made really good grub! 

11. She was an extremely hard worker.

Heavenly Father, I pray that GaGa has found her way to you and is already in your loving arms.  That she knows she was loved and will be missed here on earth.  I pray that you wrap the family left to mourn in your embrace and let them grieve and ask questions, but give them peace and remind them of the good memories to get them through the heartache.  Please take away the stress and the questions of the future and give each person knowledge that all things happen in your time and you will not leave them or forsake them and will carry them when they are no longer able to walk on their own. I am thankful, Father, for having known Lou and for you allowing her the years she was here on earth. I pray for protection and safety for those traveling to be here to celebrate Lou's life. Thank you, Father, for loving us and allowing us to not fear death, as we are promised eternal rest through your Son, Jesus Christ. I pray these things in your precious Son's name. Amen!

The Simpler Life

I have started reading a series about the Amish community by Shelley Shepard Gray. My Mom told me about it and it is exactly what I needed to read at this time.  It's just enough romance, humor, real life and fun knowledge of the Amish to keep me interested.

It got me thinking.  I would love to be living in the simple times of these people. But then I realize how much I would have to give up.  My shopping, my high heals, my makeup, my bling-bling, my fast food...the list is endless.  I have decided that I can adopt some of their simpler ways of life into my own and see if I can find a nice balance.

Could you live within the Amish world?

Modesty

I don't have any!  As was apparent yesterday when I had x-rays done and I was told to take everything off from the waist up.  And then I stood there talking to the nurse in nothing but clothes on from the waist down. And then she politely told me that I could put on one of the "paper shirts". That were laying there on the bench where I had just thrown all of my clothes...that I obviously didn't see...and felt really stupid.  This is not the first time that I have done something like that.  It's not that I think I have a gorgeous body. I'm just comfortable in my own skin.  And walk around the house naked.  And pee with the door open and sometimes do it when we have guests because I forget that in the real world that is not acceptable behavior.  And Robert and Delaney laugh at me.  Robert can undress in front of me, but not pee in front of me.  Delaney does NOT walk around in anything but clothes.  And she is a modest sweet girl.  Who I sometimes envy.  And then I try it. And it takes me forever because I didn't bring everything with me I needed to the bathroom. And the clothes I want are in the laundry room and I have no idea where the half dozen robes I own are! And this entire time cursing because I would have already been dressed and out the door had I just went naked from point A to point B to point C back to point A. And I think wrapping a towel around you as you dart across the hallway from the bathroom to the bedroom is acceptable! And I think having a bra and underwear on as you make your way through the house to the laundry room for that shirt you need out of the dryer is ok, also.

I wonder how many people I have sent to the hospital with trauma to their corneas?  I'm surprised I haven't received the bills for therapy from my neighbors!

Blessings Counted

I have been overwhelmed with sadness for the families that have taken to facebook to share their tragic losses.  Not sadden because they are sharing, but that there are so many families with BIG losses.  And yet, they are finding the courage to face each day and then to document their journey for others.  It occurs to me that the facebook accounts are set up, I'm sure, to keep loved ones in the loop.  But then they take on a life of their own with so many people reaching out and praying for these families.  It's such an awe inspiring moment for me to witness.  I don't know these people that I am praying for, but prayer is universal.  God doesn't need us to "know" the people in the prayers we raise up to Him; He hears our prayers and answers.  And I believe in the power of prayer.  So, I will continue to hit "like" on these stories that touch my heart, pray for their specific needs and be grateful that there is still good in this evil world!

If you would like to follow some of these awe inspiring stories, I have included the links below!
https://www.facebook.com/PrayingForTheNevils?ref=stream
https://www.facebook.com/BringingHomeTheBrowns?ref=stream

There are also a few "hometown" stories I am following with loved ones that are sick. As soon as I have an actual link to their pages I will post those also.