We Marry Our Dad's!

I'm not sure if this is completely true.  I see similarities of my friends and family between dad and husband.  But sometimes I don't get it so I'm confident it's not a scientific fact. 

I will say for me, I have married a man that reminds me so much of my Step Daddy that I honest and truly cry.  Daddy is very much on my heart as his birthday was Saturday.  A day that Robert and I celebrated with cooking out on the grill...just like we would've done had Daddy still been with us.  Robert will say things that my Daddy said, will make facial expressions that are right on and will get wound up over the little things, just like my Daddy.   I guess when that special person is in your life and you were loved, cared for and secure you seek that out in your adult relationships. I would give up much to have one more day with Daddy.  Not for myself, but to allow Robert and him to fish and to sit in silence and say so very much without one word spoken.

I wonder if Robert feels like he married his Mother?  YIKES!!!

THE MOVE

I feel as if I need to capitalize MOVE as it was quite the move, indeed!  I knew it would be stressful, I just had no idea how stressful! 

If you don't already know this about me, I like to be in control of all things big and small.  I also believe that everyone should think as I do.  Are you laughing, yet?  I learned a long time ago that this is not a possibility, or what I like to refer to as "My Happy Place" cannot and does not exist.  Although I still like to pretend!  This is why I take anxiety pills.

I don't want to go into my weekend.  I want to focus on the positive.  Robert, Delaney, Baby Sixx, Monkey, Zoe, Willow Joy and myself have a beautiful home that I am so happy to be in.  It has a lot of character, it's bigger than our other place and it has a back yard for the dogs to play in.  From now on I will just refer to THE MOVE and shudder!

Oh, and did anyone happen to be in Little Caesars on Harry and witnessed the crazy lady yelling at the manager about other patrons walking out with her pizza and having to wait 10 min for hot and ready's that were already done...how horrible was that? Coincidentally, does anyone know of another Little Caesars in the area of Pawnee and Woodlawn/Oliver?  Again, totally coincidence, I'm banned from the one on Harry. 

Time's Running a Marathon!

Yesterday my Niece Lacy turned sixteen.  The night before that I attended freshman orientation for Delaney.  In my mind 10 years ago was 1990, not 22 years ago!  When did time not only march, but decide to run a marathon?  I have a step daughter that started high school.  I have a niece that started her Sophomore year.  I remember both of them being born for pete's sake!  I can't be old enough, right?  I hear it's better to embrace the years.  The person that said that probably didn't have wrinkles, still fit into the same clothes they wore in high school and didn't have children growing fast than weeds!  My Niece Kelcy calls for boy advice.  I find myself not sharing what I was doing my freshman year of high school with any of them!  I'm pretty sure that I will be locking my year books away in a safety deposit box to only be opened upon my death, when they will then be delivered to my casket under security, like with semi-automatics, and buried with me.  Holy Smoke!  Have I mentioned in the last few months how joyous I am that we didn't have face book back in the day? 

As this marathon is being ran, I realize that I want to embrace each moment.  I want to be there for Delaney and involved in everything I can be as she goes through her high school years.  I want to figure out how to get to Texas more often.  I want to cheer all of them on from the stands and have shirts made up that announces I'm the crazy Step-Mom and Aunt and embarrass them.  I want to beat up anyone that hurts them and hand out our counseling cards to the parents.  Yes, I know, extreme, but man, you only will have this time once! 

Now that I'm done searching for anxiety treatment centers, I am proud of the girls.  They are awesome young woman who excel in school and are good girls.  I'm blessed they are not into bad things, that they are (for the most part) respectful, know what manners are and they love all types of people.

Today is Robert and mines second month wedding anniversary.  I don't have thank you cards out yet.  We're moving again.  I haven't officially changed my last name with the world, aka the social security office.  I'm deciding if running away from my life is an option?

Much love as I try to find my heavy duty anxiety pills...

Til The Street Lights Came On

I have very much taken for granted my youth and having a sister.  During the summer, depending on age, I was riding my bike to the pool, going over to a friends house, riding my bike up to the DQ, sunbathing in the back yard, planning sleep overs, building forts, on vacation in Oklahoma visiting grandparents, in McPherson with my Aunt and Uncle, staying up and reading until the early hours in the morning and not getting up until noon, where I would then head to the pool and hang out until it was time for my parents to get home.  I would then eat dinner and play outside until the street lights came on.  Then there's all the memories of driving and dragging main and Stop To Shop...but those might need to be another blog...or when Delaney is older and I don't have to worry about her questioning what I type!

Then there's my sister.  There were many of summers that she was in charge of me.  Regardless if we were fighting or best of friends, she was always there for me.  I was never truly alone.  I had someone to confide in, someone to go too when I did something I wasn't supposed too, and to beg for rides when I wanted to go somewhere.

When Delaney asked for a friend to come over and spend a few days, I really didn't hesitate.  One, I really like this friend (super, super sweet) and second, Delaney's stuck in the house all day long with nothing to do but watch TV, deal with the zoo we have and listen to music.  Now, for me, this would be total heaven, but I can see how fast that would become old. I don't know if Delaney had siblings (she does have an older sibling, but she lives in a different state) that were close in age if she would really be thankful for them.  They can be a pain.  But, I also know that there is something to being an only child, friends spread all over a large area, and having parents that work.

I called my childhood BFF, Melissa, and said that I totally understood why our parents where always so happy to agree with our spending many nights out in the yard in our tents or at least at each other's homes.  They didn't have to entertain us, they never had to worry about us, and we always had such a good time.  As I laid in bed last night listening to Delaney and Victoria giggle (and other noises that I don't even want to imagine what they were getting into) I could only smile and my heart was happy.  Delaney was happy.  Sometimes, at the end of the day, that's all it takes.  Your child is happy. 

The Little Moments

Roberts Mom arrived today.  Her name is Maxine.  Delaney calls her Grandma Max.  I will call her Mama Max. 

Delaney and I made a sign for her and met her at the airport.  I cried, Mama Max cried.  It was a beautiful moment.

We took Mama Max to Roberts route so they could see each other and not have to wait until tonight.  They had not see each other in 10 years.  I cried, Mama Max cried, Robert was teary, Delaney was most likley crying on the inside (although I think her eyes had some tears!) and I'm pretty sure Robert's helper was emotional also. 

This is why we didn't elope!  This is why I wanted a simple back yard wedding with our friends and family surrounding us and then time to love on everyone.  This is exactly what I wanted my wedding to be! 

Did ya all know I get married in four days?  Did ya all know that it's hotter than all get out and I'm getting married in four days in this heat?  Did I mention Mama Max is from Washington State and she's not liking this heat too much?  No?  Well, it's all true, my friends!

What's In A Name?

I have 31 days to determine how I will write my new name.  Do I keep my maiden name and do hyphen?  Do I just do what I normally do and write my first name, middle initial and then my new last name?

I think names are so important.  I love unique, but not weird.  I love sentimental and traditional.  I love strong names and names that make a statement.  I guess that's why, of all the things I have to worry about in the next 31 days, how I write my name is important to me!

Oh, and can someone PLEASE remind me to get the marriage license?  

From the almost: Jonya R. Dusing, Jonya Ulm-Dusing, Jonya R. Ulm-Dusing

Jonya's Thoughts Thursday

These are my thoughts right now:

1. I'm getting married six weeks from Saturday.
2. I'm moving from my current office to down the hall four weeks from tomorrow.  I will lose my windows and will, once again, be working in a cave.
3. Robert has started coaching softball for the summer.  Practices are two times a week and games are one to two times a week.  In case you are math challenged like I am...that means he is gone three to four nights a week for eight weeks.
4. I forgot the password to the RSVP address I set up for the wedding.  I had to reset it with a new one. 
5.  I remembered at 5:00 a.m. this morning two more people that I forgot to send wedding invitations too.
6.  My landlord is very ill and without typing out a novel, we will be moving again after the wedding.
7.  Baby will have to learn a new home and I worry about her hurting herself in the process.
8.  Delaney will begin staying with us for two weeks at a time beginning the first week in June.  I need to plan meals/food for her to eat and plan dinner so she is fed. 
9.  I will have to start coming into work early so that I'm home at a decent hour to care for said teen above.
10.  I have finally fit into my pants from last summer, that are smaller than the ones I have been able to wear the last four months.
11.  I'm afraid  my wedding dress will not fit due to being able to fit in my smaller pants.  My dress fitting is tomorrow.  I don't want to get yelled at and wondering if I can stuff the corset?
12.  I wish I would have eloped.
13.  Airline tickets are super cheap right now and I want to buy tickets for the cruise Robert and I want to go on. 
14.  I need to pay for the wedding before I plan the honeymoon.
15.  I should've only had one soda today instead of two.
16.  My pants are killing me since I've ate lunch.  Maybe I'm not quite ready for this size...there's hope for tomorrow's dress fitting.
17.  I need to get contacts.
18.  I forgot to have lab work done at my doctor this week.
19.  I have so many piles on my desk I have no idea what I'm doing and where I was at with any of my projects. 
20.  Really ready to go home.
21.  I think as a coaches wife I need to buy some cute outfits to wear to the games.
22.  I wonder if we should try to find a home and buy it in the next few months or find a place to rent and take the year we had originally planned on to safe?  I wonder if we will be able to find a place to rent with two huge dogs and a cat?
23.  I really need to start working again.
24.  I think I might need a heavy duty anxiety pill tonight.
25.  I'm so excited my Mom is coming tomorrow and staying most of the week.

I feel so much better.  Thanks for listening.  You can just bill me!